心灰意冷

对于这一切，我没能得到适当的发泄，感到异常辛苦！
 闭上双眼十余秒飞奔在高速公路，试着用速度换回一点痛快，就差那么一点就能撞上那棵树！
是什么让我转弯？或许我还有留恋吧

这感觉不对

12/01/12

我的一个结果与你平静的生活作比较。
我苦思了很久~你现在过得好好的，我已没有了去找你的必要~
我不该这么自私去敲你不安的心门~你开心就是我要的结果，爱着你仍是我的执著


告诉自己我很坚强！我一定可以做到！爱你就是要你快乐，这点遗憾就让我来扛！

09/01/2012

家里的问题压得我很喘，自己钱的问题又还没解决。
但我懂我会一直坚强下去，以捍卫我的家！

看到你的状态我顿时心冷了下，深怕自己就是那个‘相机’。
烟抽很凶，但都只是现在，因为我已决定了由一天二十支立刻戒完！

小孩子~此刻我是多么的想你，想抚摸你的头发，想闻着属于你的气味~
如果我就是那‘相机’，你放心，我会明白~
就算过去的回忆太脆弱，连未来也没有我，爱着你仍是我的执著~

7/1/2012

突然发现距离考试完毕才剩下四天~
不想这天来临，至少现在的我还能爱着你~
不管我们会怎样，只要你开心那就足够，那就足够了~
云，笨蛋每天都在想你。

06/01/2012

沉沦了一阵子，这段日子里烟抽很凶！ 

对不起，你不在我身边，我更加要记得我对你的承诺~

我在见你之前一定会完全把它给戒掉！就像上次一样，我说到做到！

31/12/2011

就在这一天我终于鼓起了勇气做出了这个决定，虽然很心痛，但我更心痛如果你不开心。
放开你是我目前唯一能做的事，真的很怕你就这样不会回来。
答应了你的事我会一一实现，只因我还爱你~
我会等

29/12/2011

这感觉不对我努力在换回，但我大概懂我失败了~
虽说不愿意，但我还是会心平气和地等待这一刻的来临。
如果真的不能再牵你手继续走下去，我会默默祝福你，一定会！

28/12/2011

最近真的很多东西烦，但我懂我能撑下去！一定能！
还有我的傻婆，或许你不相信我很满意现在的结局，至少我还能偶尔见下你还能牵你手~只要你心里还有我的一刻，我就满足了~

20/12/2011

是我想太多？ 总觉得你今天有点不同~ 你逃避我的吻
或许我现在真的很差，但我会继续努力奋斗~我以为只要我努力更完美，我们就能长远！
你说将你的地位摆在自己前面，吃亏的会是自己，我懂我也知道。在你心中我也是在很后面，但我想说就算我会吃亏也只是亏给你，我不介意只要你快乐~

should i tell u honestly?

u are too busy recently and u are not able to accompany me when i'm moody~
feel so sorry for every single cigarette i light up,i don know whether i should tell u or nor, scare u will run away from me~
but i rather u run away from me than cheated by me, i swear i will not be the one who try to cheat u, not me!
i'd decide to tell u on next time when i see u!!　is up to u whether u wan go coz i reli hurt u

心疼

不要问我为什么这么夜还不睡，我说过，只要我还有力我都不会丢下你一个人熬夜。其实我更想的是，在你埋首做功课的时候能不时递给你一杯温水，在你累了就开玩笑逗你。

最近很多烦恼缠绕着我，快喘不过气，我竟然还对你冷淡起来，真后悔！我决定了，我的事情我自己扛，你的事情我们两个一起扛，以后对你疼爱有加不会对你大声说一句话，这样的温柔你要不要？

all i nid to do is face all these shit by myself~ i nid to overcome all these alone~
a lot of tensions come from daily life, and when i hoping someone to be wif me, listen to me, u're jz too busy wif ur stuff, tetris, ur frenS,dearS. WELL, i think i can make it by myself coz i have to. At this moment, i'm all alone!

am i that stupid? how come i feel like i don know everything about you?
thr is still a gap between u and me~i try so hard to break through it, and wont feel tired!!

how silly am i ==

is raining now and i go to the park tat near your house,think to send u to my house once u finish ur stuff. who knows, i failed to wait after been bathed in the rain for one hour -.-'

double disappointed

angry to myself for being no guts to date u on last day,hv a walk at the midnight from tbr to melati mcd wif shi ping.

finally take out all my courage to date u and i've made it. so happy and so expectancy but at last end up wif another disappointed. maybe i'm still early to sad coz i am not even ur close fren,but when u forget to reply me, i can feel tat i am not tat important to u. moody,lonely, and this is how i spend my weekends,i better prepare for my work on tomorrow,hope can slp as early as i could rather than think too much.

you're such a cloud,beautiful and looks like actual,but far apart.
when only i can hold ur hands,touch ur long blonde hair and kiss your lips?
in dream maybe~hmm